SAD

ok. i kinda know that E will tell me 'i told you so' if he knew what is going on. but the foolish me still went on and dived into a pit filled with nothing good. haiz

Please, do not scroll down if u do not wanna know and dun judge me on what i wrote. This is the bitter fact that i might face in the future.








































































So like a said, i kinda am able to predict stuff la ~ and now i think that my future is pretty gloomy. I really hope that this is just the sadness talking to me. But I think it will be very true very soon. Hmm, i bet you all must be 'so' curious about what will happened to me in the future sia . . .

Well, i kinda think that if i continue my life like i am right now, i will pretty much end up single the whole of my life. I will pretty much have not much friends at all cos all of them are repelled by my negativity. Not only that i will be those kinda looking for one night stand in my desperate desire to feel like a human being again. While i will wear my mask so that everyone will think i am very normal and boring. I might just end up dying of some sexual diease because of the one night stands.

My mum might just die of heart attack and disappointment because of what i failure i am and nobody will know what really happened to me. i will just live my life the way i wan until i die. Well, i do not need to worry about the fact that my family name will die in my hand cos i pretty dun have to worry about it. My brother has already been married for dunno-how-many-years and have 2 children le. So lets just say that it is already done.

And, yes everyone, i do have siblings that i do not talk about. I have an elder sister who is about 30+ this year and a older brother about 40++ this year? ha! bet most of u all didnt see this coming sia. Well, they are my half siblings anw, so i do not talk to them or talk about them at all. I just know that my sis is much more closer to me than my bro cos she talks to me on msn and that there is always a weird feeling about my bro. Like there is a barrier between him and me, so i am not close to him at all.

BUT! what the hell, as if having such sibling makes me feels better at all. I knew that i had these people at the age of 11 and i had no idea how to react at all. I dun even know what are they when i first met them except the fact that they tried to be nice to me or something like that ~


the one thing that is a waste is that i will never be able to fulfil my long term dream ~

2009 -----> 2010

MOVING!!!

http://a-y-z-a.tumblr.com/

hohohoho

dun feel like explaining it now cos i have a report to rush and it is pretty much 3.30am in the morning so ya ~ watch out for the new blog!

Emo post

WARNING!

DO NOT READ OR HIGHLIGHT THE FOLLOWING IF YOU DO NOT LIKE TO READ EMO STUFF!!!


Whenever I see both of you, I only see how pathetic I am. You guys never knew it cause I am pretty much a master of disguise and I pretty much am able to put up a strong hold. Every time I tease about both of you, it just reminded me how pathetic I am. What a failure I always am. I know its not helping by thinking in such a way, but I can't help it. My self-esteem was never high to began with and you two are only making it worst. I can't look at the both of you with ever feeling depress, you two are like the winner of the race I wanna complete. As disgusting as this might sound, I wanna complete my race too.

Crazy Days ~

BLogginfg at my cousin's house while he is practicing his guitar :p

Anw, shall blog about the christmas ba :)

Tuesday
Went out with EKWGZ ~ shall not say too much cos u all can reach from E's blog! :p
okok la ~ went movie-ing with W and G to watch the avatar, ate and walked around la. AVATOAR WAS SIMPLY AWESOME! the graphics was simply so beautiful la!!!!!!haha wanted to go clubbing but didnt cos E didnt came and i really really dunno how to go st james sia ~ :(
So anw, went steamboating with the rest at bugis. haha! i was so fun la :):) just like the good old times :)

Wednesday
nothing much in the morning and afternoon. Went clubbing with the rest at zouk! zouk is not too bad sia! and for the first time, i ordered drink there myself! the drinks totally sucks la, cos it was like anyhow anyhow order de. hahahaha. didnt habve so much fun as compared to the fist time i club sia ~ why wont the ppl stop coming ~~~~~ hahaha ~ anw, ended up going houganga to have breakfast with yl and zack. then after that went home and pack my bag and went off to malaysia!!!! HAHA! everything was so awesomely crazy!!!!!!!! haha!

PS: really love the present u all gave me :) thanks guys :)

CHRISTMAS PRESENT!

ok. What EKGWZ is seeing here is their present for christmas! Well, do not be disappointed! its only part of the the present! Well, i thought i will be cool if we had some kind of identity! SO I PERSONALLY HAND MADE THESE!!!!! Well, i collected all the materials and made it la! so it is pretty much one of a kind in the whole world and I SPENT A FORTUNE ON THEM OK!!! SO PLEASE DO NOT JUST CHUCK IT ON UR TABLE!!!!!!!

Well, each symbol means something! so if u wanna find out! go watch the anime la! hahahahahahahahahahahah! i know its like childish la ~ but it seems cool leh ~~~~~~

HMP

ok. with regards to the previous post, i was totally stupid and stuff like that la ~ haha :p
cos i was really bored ma, and i still had time before the morning briefing began.

Sooooooo, as most od u all know, i am one of the few lucky ones who went to the Housekeeping Mentoring Programme (HMP). Well, to simply summarise everything, i was just simply funfilled and definitely a very memorable experience :) the things that i have learn from the people there can never be learnt in school ~ haizzz ~ I MISS THAT PLACE LE !!!!!!!!

Day 1
I was like totally clueless of what i was suppose to expect? haha. cos i have no idea what the management had planned for us and i was like a lost lamb going into the lion's den!!! haha! totally nervous sia! keep asking myself what am i doing here sia ~ but! the people there were very friendly! so the first dat i was attached to a room attendant! her name is annie! aunty aunnie is a very good person sia ~ cos she like taught be the proper way of cleaning a room? instad of the shorts cut they have sia ~ HAHA! nothing much for that day le, just learnt a few more things about the hotel sia :)

Day 2
TOTALLY BORED TO DEATH ON THIS DAY !!!!!!! COS IT WAS SIMPLY ADMIN STUFF!!!! AND WE ARE NOT ALLOWED TO TOUCH THE ADMIN STUFF SIA !!!!! This time was a Assistant housekeeper called SANDY!!!! haha! well, she was also trying to find stuff for us to do too!!! haha! then to make things worst! THE SYSTEM CRASHED!!!!! hahahahahah! it was like everything cannot work sia ~ haha ~ so we ended up helping them do misc stuff till the system was back online and learnt more!

Day 3
Well, it was like nth new? When to the pool side terrace and observed how they did the rooms sia ~ this time, it was 2 guys doing it ~ and the standard compared to aunties were simply too different! my standard was like speed and stuff like that la ~ haha! i was like so surprised la! hahahahah! Well, i started around 12pm, so i had lunch le ~ but the guys didnt, so had to returned to office to sit lor ~ haha. then attended the Assitant housekeepers' meeting sia! it was so insightful! the thing they discuss there! HMMMM!!!!!!!!!! So after that, there was an AH who brought us around and told us of the different thing in the Housekeeping department! He took 1 hour and 40 over mins just to show us around a RA and watched and helped as they did the night turn down sia ~haha :):)

Day 4
ok ~ most sian day? did the laundry like sorting out the pillowcases and stuffs like that la ~ nothing much to share lor ~ oh ya! followed a valet and learnt about the different things and how risky it is being a valet sia! HAHA!

Day 5
LAST DAY LE ! ! ! was suppose to attach to a Manager!!!! but, she was too busy, so we attached ourselves to a AH! to watch them inspect rooms and stuff like that la ~ AND!!! WE ALSO TOOK PART IN THEIR FIRE EVACUATION EXERCISE!!!!!! HAHAHA! POOR GUY FROM THE 30TH FLOOR HAD TO WALK ALL THE WAY DOWN TO 1ST SIA! POOR GUY!!! HAHAHAHA! Well, it was like a very sad day lor ~ cos its like the last day sia. We have met so many new people and we are going to miss them sia ~ all the things that they have taught us sia :(:(

This is totally crazy ~ but !!!! i am like blogging in my attachment place :-p hahaha

ACC

ok. posting this just before my accounting test doesnt seem like such a good idea le!

BUT ....................................................

I GOT GOOD NEWS!

*(no W, i do not have a gf)*


I GOT IN THE FREAKING HOUSEKEEPING MENTORING PROGRAMME!

OKOK. i know it doesn't sound very attractive at all!

but its like such a awesome opportunity! (only 14student got in leh)

AND TO MAKE THINGS INTERESTING!

I GOT INTO MARRIOTT! ITS LIKE THE MOTHER COMPANY OF HILTON LA!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! CANT BELIEVE MY LUCK! THIS IS AWESOME ! ! !

All I want ...

Since it is Christmas soon. Then i think we will get into the christmas spirit!

HOHOHO!

BEIJING!

A really interesting song i sang at kbox once. haha.